November 22, 2011

Where did the year go?

Filed under: Love — by Sarah H @ 4:23 pm
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Next week, we start the month of December, the last month of the year. Looking back at 2011, I’m really hoping 2012 is a little better. This year has ended up being a wash, for every good thing that happened, there was a bad thing:

+ I got a promotion at my job! And then

– 2 weeks later I got into a car accident, one I am still going to the chiropractor for.

– My purse, with about $700 worth of my stuff was stolen, but then about a month later,

+ I found out I got into FGCU, and will be continuing my education next semester at this university.

2011 will be a memorable year for me, for being the half good/half bad year. I feel 2012 can only get better, right? For starters, P and I will be moving in together in January. When I asked him if he wanted to move in together in December or January, his reason for picking January was, “Why not start the new year fresh, just me and you?”. Sounds pretty logical to me. For the 1 reader I have, you’re probably thinking, wow, 4 years and you’re just now moving in together? Here’s the thing, we started dating when he was 18 and I was 20. We’re still practically babies. Plus, I live by the words: “I’ve never heard someone say, I wish I hadn’t waited so long, but I’ve heard people say, I wish I hadn’t rushed into things.” As someone who is a child of divorce and is super realistic about the 50% divorce rate, I’m ok waiting for things to happen. If we’re meant to be together, what’s a few more years of dating?

Man, that was one heck of a tangent I went off on.

Anyway, next year has to be better. With the risk of “jinxing” it, I think I’ll stop now. But maybe if I put those positive thoughts out there, they’ll come true.


November 14, 2011

How do I love thee:To my love on our 4th anniversary

Filed under: Love — by Sarah H @ 3:02 am
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Tuesday is the mark of our 4th year together. When you were 18 and I was 20, we started this journey, and I couldn’t be happier it’s with you. As cliche as this is, I feel I should, in¬†Shakespearean fashion, tell you why I love you. So…how do I love thee? Let me count the ways…

New love

New love, 2007

1. I love the way that no matter what I’m doing, or how I’m feeling, seeing you always brings a smile to my face. I can be having the worst day ever, and the second I’m in your arms, I instantly feel better.

2. I love how you know me, how you make me smile. I love that you know exactly what to say and do to make me happy, and that you are always there for me.

3. I love your eyes, your mouth, your hair. You are the most handsome man I have ever met. There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t admire you and wonder how I got so lucky.

Our 1st year together, 2008

4. ¬†I love that you’re sweet and shy. It was your shy personality that originally drew me to you, that and seeing you at the beach without a shirt on for the first time ;).

5. I love the way you are with my family. You’re so great with Joshua, and always willing to have a conversation with my mom and dad. You’re funny and charming, and you are always so sweet.

2nd year together, 2009

6. I love how loud and passionate you get about the Giants. You made me a football fan by getting so excited about the game. Seeing someone so soft spoken get so loud about a touchdown or an interception, made me want to be a part of the experience with you, to share this passion of yours.

7. I love your smell. I love the way you smell first thing in the morning, the way your hair smells, the cologne you wear. I love it all. And I love that you think I’m so weird for loving this about you.

3rd year, 2010

8. I love that we don’t fight. We may disagree about things, but we’re both willing to compromise and work through things. I love that it’s easy to be with you, that we work so well.

9. I love that you make me a better person. I used to be stubborn and difficult, you made me able to compromise. For the first time, I say I’m sorry, and it’s not to just get what I want, it’s because I honestly am.

Our 4th year, 2011. Ke$ha and Waldo

10. I love you. Every part of you. There’s nothing I don’t love, and I love that we can talk on the phone and always have something to say. I love that we can do nothing, and still have an amazing time. I love that you’re willing to go to movies with me when I have noone else to go with, even if they’re chick flicks. I love our fantastic taste in tv, because let’s be honest, it’s just fantastic. I love our weekends together.

Thank you for another fantastic year. Thank you for being there for me, for being the most amazing boyfriend. Thank you for being so sweet, and always getting me the chocolates I love. I love that you’re always thinking of me and doing small things for me. I love you, my missing puzzle piece, and I know there will be more years to come. Thank you for being the most fantastic boyfriend.

November 7, 2011

End of a Relationship

I think the hardest thing to give up on in life is a relationship. I’m not just talking about a romantic relationship, I mean a work relationship, friendship, any type of relationship where you have interaction with another human being who is a major part of your life. I am recently trying to deal with the end of a very important friendship, and no matter how hard I try to pound it into my head, I just can’t bring myself to admit it’s over.

We have been best friends for years, we’ve been through so much together, and suddenly, it’s over. This friend has been there for me through break ups, and I for them. This friend has laughed with me on the long drives home from high school years ago, and even though I moved away, we still had a bond, and a friendship, that I thought couldn’t be broken. Even through the multiple relationships we’ve both been in in the last 8 years, since we became friends, we’ve always been there for each other. I don’t know what changed.

I’ve tried multiple times to reach out to this friend recently, to no avail. All I can keep thinking is, did I do something wrong? We haven’t had a huge fight, there was no falling out, our friendship just stopped. And you know what really sucks? Knowing that you care about a relationship more than the other person. Knowing that no matter how hard you try to maintain a friendship there’s nothing you can do. And I don’t like giving up, but I think I really need to. All this “friendship” does is hurt my feelings and drive me crazy. Sometimes, you have to give up on something. And that doesn’t make me a quitter, it makes me realistic. And as much as it hurts, I have officially given up on my best friend. And it does hurt, and it makes me want to cry, but I’ll move on. Just like in a break up, it’ll suck, and I’ll miss him, but I know I’m better off not wasting my time and energy on someone who doesn’t value me as much as I value them.

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