thestoryofsarah

November 7, 2011

End of a Relationship

I think the hardest thing to give up on in life is a relationship. I’m not just talking about a romantic relationship, I mean a work relationship, friendship, any type of relationship where you have interaction with another human being who is a major part of your life. I am recently trying to deal with the end of a very important friendship, and no matter how hard I try to pound it into my head, I just can’t bring myself to admit it’s over.

We have been best friends for years, we’ve been through so much together, and suddenly, it’s over. This friend has been there for me through break ups, and I for them. This friend has laughed with me on the long drives home from high school years ago, and even though I moved away, we still had a bond, and a friendship, that I thought couldn’t be broken. Even through the multiple relationships we’ve both been in in the last 8 years, since we became friends, we’ve always been there for each other. I don’t know what changed.

I’ve tried multiple times to reach out to this friend recently, to no avail. All I can keep thinking is, did I do something wrong? We haven’t had a huge fight, there was no falling out, our friendship just stopped. And you know what really sucks? Knowing that you care about a relationship more than the other person. Knowing that no matter how hard you try to maintain a friendship there’s nothing you can do. And I don’t like giving up, but I think I really need to. All this “friendship” does is hurt my feelings and drive me crazy. Sometimes, you have to give up on something. And that doesn’t make me a quitter, it makes me realistic. And as much as it hurts, I have officially given up on my best friend. And it does hurt, and it makes me want to cry, but I’ll move on. Just like in a break up, it’ll suck, and I’ll miss him, but I know I’m better off not wasting my time and energy on someone who doesn’t value me as much as I value them.

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2 Comments »

  1. Sarah, I know exactly how you feel. The thoughts you’ve expressed here are the same ones I’ve had myself when a relationship has ended. It’s tough and sometimes we can spend hours racking our brains, struggling to figure out if there was anything we could have done differently. But eventually we always need to come to the realization that none of it is our fault, and accept that it is another aspect of life that is out of our hands.

    Comment by Woz — November 10, 2011 @ 7:35 pm |Reply

    • Thanks Rob! I appreciate your comments and I’m glad I’m not crazy for feeling this way. I have a hard time convincing myself I’m doing the right thing, because there’s no closure in the situation. Had there been a fight, a betrayal, or a falling out, at least I’d have an end, but this way, I feel like I’m giving up!

      On a side note, I appreciate you reading my blog and leaving a comment!

      Comment by smh05j — November 11, 2011 @ 2:01 am |Reply


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